Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Storm Anxiety



Pentecost 4
June 21, 2015


A great windstorm arose, and the waves beat into the boat, so that the boat was already being swamped.
--Mark 4:37

When I was a child, I was terrified of storms.   I’m not talking about your run-of-the-mill childhood storm anxiety.  I’m talking about full-blown terror.  I didn’t even like going outside to play on windy days!  God played a tremendous practical joke on me by sending me to minister on the Great Plains, and to Oklahoma in particular.  Something about confronting your fears?   Like most children, my storm anxiety lessened when my parents were around.  Something about their calm demeanor in the face of the storm calmed me down a great deal.  With them, I felt safe.  Looking back, I realize there’s no logic in that – they were as powerless before the storm as I was!

As an adult, I have lost most of my storm anxiety.  Well, except for lightning.  It still terrifies me (unless I’m inside, then I think it is beautiful).  But, in our adult lives, storms come in all shapes and sizes.  In addition to sever weather (which can happen anywhere, not just Oklahoma), there are also storms of ill health, family crises, broken relationships, financial disasters, violence, crime, tragedies and a million other things that can threaten to overwhelm us with their power.  Many of these things can be more subtle and even more terrifying than an F5 tornado.    Like the tornadic winds on the prairie, the storms that rage around our lives leave us feeling out-of-control, vulnerable, and alone.  They can produce anxiety and fear that is so intense it can paralyze us.  They leave us yearning for someone to walk with us, and assure us that we are not alone in facing the storms and their damaging winds.

Sometimes, when the storms are raging, we can identify with the disciples’ irritation that Jesus is sound asleep while they are being overwhelmed by panic and fear and the crashing waves.  Maybe we share a twinge of guilt when Jesus asks them where their faith has gone.  We wouldn’t mind sharing their wonder and awe when, with a word, Jesus calms the storm.  A little storm-calming wouldn’t hurt once in a while, would it?

Over the years, I have discovered that Jesus’ storm-calming presence rarely comes in the dramatic show-stopping way that it does in this week’s Gospel Lesson.  But still, it comes.  It comes more like the reassuring presence of my parents surrounding me in their bed in the midst of the terrifying window rattling thunder of my boyhood.  It comes in moments of quiet meditation and prayer, and in the presence of the community of faith – the “Body of Christ” – in worship, in word and in sacrament.  It comes in the form of a friend -- a brother or sister in Christ -- who listens to me and reminds me of Immanuel --  God with us.

Peace,
Bishop Mike

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